Diary of a Mother of 2

Catchy title, right?! I am going to have fun with this one (this post)! It is crazy how much time passed since my last post. Were we still in Thailand at the time?! Probably. And we will be on Samui again, you just wait for my next post. But as for now, we are in Budapest. I am enjoying everyday life with Assya and Zoard. Assya will be 8 months old on the 23rd of this month (August) and Zoard is 3.5 years old.

Assya is exploring a toy box.
Zoard is singing to himself in his room. Occasionally he lets me know how lonely he is.It is nap time. For him.

Going out:
This is what I am most proud of. I take the kids out a lot. In the morning and in the afternoon. I organize an insane amount of playdates and we use public transportation on a daily basis. Assya is not so much a fan after a certain time so I usually take her out of her stroller and she sits in my lap or I take the carrier with me.






I still take pictures as you can see. I started a collection of Zoard pushing Assya. On Instagram I have started a tag #pushingassya. Please let me know if you also have a hashtag of your own. I was inspired by a few mamas who have been doing their own tags and projects, I find it lovely!


Zoard still hasn’t started his afternoon nap which is frankly, quite bad. He should be napping between 2 and 4 and now it is 3pm. It will be very difficult waking him up, once he falls asleep, not to mention that he will not be tired until 10. But we will be.

Our bedroom is super dark in the mornings, and I am usually quiet and slow when I am waken up by Zoard, but let me see if I can find any pictures… morning (or sleeping) related.

Cute picture but around dawn, I am too sleepy to put Assya back in her cot and Zoard climbs in our bed at …who knows when… I just notice my bed space shrinking… so this is NOT a morning shot.


I really took this one in the morning. Zoard was showing us what he looks like when he is asleep.

You see how small our bed is?! Imagine me and my husband in it and these two, plus the swan! HAHA


We eat a lot but it is not so flattering to take pictures of anyone while they have tasty or not so tasty food hanging out of their mouth.


She is not crying. She is grateful. We are doing baby led weaning again. (Assya is making friends with some apples.)


Carrots… yumm!


By the way, my husband does most of the cooking.


Zoard still eats healthy foods but like I said, I tend not to take pictures of him doing so.


On the other hand, you can find lots of pictures of me nursing Assya. I feel very strongly about breastfeeding.  And she is still just playing with the vegetables and fruits we give her so basically, breastmilk is all she gets. We do not give her water either.



Here is a shot of one of the coolest playdates we had. Do you see a pattern here?!
You can find Kriszta’s blog here.

Assya is telling me I must stop right now and play with her. Yes, ma’am

See you on Instagram @zoardandassya!








Do I Need To Be Afraid?!

Zoard is 3 years old now and a few weeks ago, he started experimenting in a whole new way.

He is not a sous chef anymore, he does not want to “just watch” the events.

He bakes and he makes preparations to bake. Sometimes on his own…


This recipe is called Lovizilo. It has a whole bag of rice in it, oat flour, powdered paprika (the Hungarian touch to it, I guess), peanut butter, grapes etc.

I tried telling him later on, that perhaps it is best if we do the baking together.

This morning, he told me that he has a little blog which does not have a Look Book but it does have recipes like the one he would like to bake next. It has brown berries and zucchini in it.


I can proudly say, that the zucchini cake turned out great. We put kefir in it and one piece of date as can be seen on this shot.

If you look closer, you will also see that Zoard chopped off his hair today and that was a shock for me.

I am really supportive of his crazy scientist behavior as much as possible but I just do not know what will come next.

Nevertheless, he is great!

See more on Instagram… @zoardminiboy



Stay at Home Toddler?!

We decided not to send Zoard to pre-school or kindergarten for now. I am a great supporter of reaching out for help when there is a need, but I also think that in our case, the “price to pay was too high”.

I did not want Zoard to catch a virus from other children and then pass it on to me.

I also felt that I had some unfinished business with him. Namely, establishing a routine he can count on in our new home and he had a hard time accepting that sometimes we do not wish to entertain him (I call it alone time).


I spend a fair amount of time with Zoard. He enjoys playing parts of stories. I tell him a lot of stories and I am guessing, he might have more books than an average 2 year old… I highly enjoy picking out books for him. Today I will tell Zoard the story of Tchaikovsky’s  Nutcracker. I hope it will cause him as much pleasure as the story of Rudolf the reindeer. See picture above…


As you know, Instagram plays a big part in our everyday lives. Zoard understands a lot about my account @zoardminiboy. He is enjoying being part of this hobby that is strongly connected with what I do in my alone time. I really like playing around with all the accessories and clothes Zoard receives and I became very selective on what we give our names to, so it is really a treat to collaborate with nice people who are behind the shops that sell beautiful children’s clothes.

Insta shop products seen specifically on these two captures are:

Beanie: LouisundLola
Hooded jumper: Mygaiaorganiccotton
Jacket: Little_indians
Sunglasses: Fjs_popshop



Getting back to what we do all day… I try to take Zoard out on a so-called adventure whenever I can. However, I do have to remind myself that I am now super close to giving birth so I have to hold myself back. Last week we went to IKEA to grab a few, not heavy items. We took a few public transportation to get there and it is among those things that I should not do anymore…


Visiting friendly cafes, not beyond far from us, is a better idea (unless it requires taking a train like we did yesterday…)
Cafe: Nata Lisboa Barcelona


Being spontaneous is essential when you wish to have a good time with your toddler. For example, I personally dislike toys that make a noise but I do not deny Zoard from sitting on them…


And sometimes I just give hime a break. I let him learn how to cope with his own mood swings without making a big deal about it.

Now I am off to do some cooking with Zoard. He LOVES that as well.  After lunch, we will both hopefully take a nap without any “misunderstandings”. And I will have an exciting post up on Instagram after we wake up so see you there!!!

xoxo, Eszter @zoardminiboy


Which Country Are You in Now?!

The last time I wrote a post, we were in Spain. Now we are in Thailand again and in between we spent a few weeks in Hungary.

Zoard has been mainly busy adoring his grandmothers and we have been busy eating. Now that we are back in Thailand, we do not have grandparents to smile at and we hardly eat. Alright, I am exaggerating…


We came back to Samui five days ago and I have been taking an advantage of the weather here. Sure it rains a lot but who can complain when we do not need to wear tights anymore. Unless we want to wear tights…


I take a lot of pictures for the sweet shops that send us clothes for Zoard to promote and I like to make it fun for Zoard so basically I let him do whatever pleases him. Unless I ask him to stand in front of a wall I really like in which case there is no guarantee that he will turn his cheeks so that the sunlight can fall evenly on him… But that is my problem, not his. HAHA


Now let us discuss my NEXT post. I would like to write an update about Zoard since he will be 2 years old 2 days from now. Any questions or topics that come to Your mind?
I will probably look at the milestones of a 2 year old but if You wish to draw my attention to something, do not hesitate to comment.

Oh and I changed our Instagram username to ZOARDMINIBOY.

Thank you for reading!!!


Message in The…

…Sand. We live on an island so this is a good way to communicate, right?!

I met this really nice couple yesterday at the beach. They have a cute daughter called Michelle who started off our blooming friendship by giving Zoard a flower. Shortly after this, Zoard gave her a seashell.  We talked, we joked around and then we had to go quickly and all I said was, we will see you around at this same beach, right?! And they nodded. Firmly. I am not mistaken.

Zoard and I walked back to the same spot in the morning and I was very disappointed to find an empty beach. Fortunately there was a bamboo stick laying in the sand so I wrote them the following:

G + A + M (the mother is Gala and the father is Alex)
After 4?

Zoard and I got ready a few minutes before 4 o’clock. Zoárd suggested we take a present:

But we ended up taking a coin as our first playdate gift which later Zoárd became unsure about:


Most of my message vanished by the time we got there except maybe for the essence of it…


However G, A and little M never showed up.

There were plenty of airplanes to spot so I am not saying we did not have a good time…


I explained to Zoárd how trees grow out of a seed…


We did other “stuff” as well:


And we kept our spirit up:


So I know what you are all asking to yourself. Could this be another message to A, G and M?!
And the answer is, of course!!!!
See you tomorrow after 4….

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A Day in The Hotel We Live in

When you live in a five star hotel, nobody else has to feel empathy towards you. Seriously. I UNDERSTAND. Why would anyone think about how it must be tough for us that we sometimes lack privacy? I am not comparing ourselves to celebrities but I too have to think twice once I leave our room.

When more than 100 people work for a hotel, you know you will bump in to someone in less than two minutes. This is why, I decided to start a mini project. I will take pictures of Zoard interacting with others. 

Zoard likes to make the first move towards others. Once he has done this, he is really kind and friendly. The challenge for me is to make the situation not so uncomfortable when someone is too eager to become BBF with Zoard. 

Zoard likes it when he can watch someone or even help out like he did today. Picking grass with one of the gardeners was something that really suited him:

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He prefers to be independent and he does not stand in line to be picked up with a few exceptions. All buggy (golf cart that takes the guests up and down the mountain) drivers are a saint and he knows that hanging out with them is a treat. So even if others are decorating the reception (which is also quite cool…) he will prefer a saintly driver:

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If I am not around, which is almost never than selfies are popular with Zoard but how much nicer it is when I offer to take a picture (which I will do more in the future).

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How would you describe your child when it comes to socializing?



Always Remember That You are Absolutely Unique.

As I get older I wish to blend in more and be less of a rebel. Especially, now that I am a parent. At the same time, it is fun to be unique. 

On Sundays, we not only have the ritual now to leave the hotel we live in but we also try to have lunch at the same place whenever it is possible. 

Since nobody who is reading this blog post lives on this island, it does not matter what the place is called. Plus I forgot. Imagine a hidden, tiny Japanese restaurant. They have maybe three tables in front and three in the back. You have to wait for your food for 40 minutes in average. Our trick is to be the first ones when they open at noon. 

The owner is a very old-fashioned Japanese guy. He does not want to get rich by owning the best Japanese restaurant on the island and for this reason, advertising and having space for parking is not important for him. 

We are probably the only ones who come to his restaurant with a child this young.
Do people give Japanese food to toddlers where you live? 

This was actually one topic we are kind of unique in. At least here so let me know your thoughts. The other topic is related to my last post. What do you think about styling the way your children look?  By styling I mean making an effort when it comes to the clothes and accessories your children wear. How much do you spend on your childrens’ wardrobe and what is your opinion on the matter?

I actually do not have a clue on how much I spend on Zoard. What I do know is that I try to shop for his new clothes when they are on sale. I did my last big shopping for him on Black Friday. And we bought a few things for my new hobby. I started understanding that if I wish Zoard to represent a small clothing company than I need my pictures to be a little less unique. We also “had to” buy some black, white and grey clothes for him in Malaysia. I think Thai children are wearing Angry Birds and Doremon most of the time which is not the look I am going for. 

Zoard is going to be representing a brand called Little Faces. And they actually liked the picture of Zoard being quite colorful. Here is their website. I will write more about them when we will start getting cute clothes from them. I am practicing every single day to improve my skills as a photographer and I am really doing it with great passion which is very good I think. Here is the picture of Zoard that was chosen (five other children will be representing Little Faces for the fall):


The picture was cropped when I entered Little Faces’ brand representative search. You can see all my pictures on Instagram: krokovayeszter is my account name. Or you can click here

What is Easy For You?

I felt emotionally drained by the time Zoard took his nap. When he was younger, even the most challenging days seemed more digestible than now. The fact that I am often hungry is strongly connected with the way I feel. Respectable parenting might advise me to let Zoard express his anger but it is simply not nice to ruin the peaceful vacation of others. And Zoard does get upset when he cannot get my full attention. Or he wonders off which is not a better alternative for me. 

I really felt isolated and sad today so I tried to focus on things that come easy to me. 

1. Not eating chocolate.

I get bad acne from chocolate so I stopped eating anything with cocoa in it 21 years ago. I really hated having a horrible skin so it was actually a relief when the dermatologist told me what was the main cause to my problem. 

2. Singing and reading out loud.

I have met many mothers of babies, toddlers… who are afraid to sing to their child. Well I am not one of them. HAHA I even made up a different melody to “rock a bye baby” and I think it is quite awesome the way I sing it. I can read stories nicely too in my humble opinion so I enjoy doing it.

3. Being naked around others.

It is not like I run around naked all the time but going to a typical Turkish bath is not a problem for me. I breast feed in public and I would not faint if I would have to change my clothes in a car. Maybe this is an Eastern European thing?! Or maybe not. 

4. Travelling and packing.

I have slept on trains, I probably flew more than a hundred times and I know what it is like to do a road trip without air conditioning. Packing is also easy for me though I rarely do the logistics of how to make everything fit in to a suitcase. So maybe I should say it is easy for me to point at my belongings which I am eager to take with me on a journey. Did I mention that today we moved rooms again?!

5. Doing my make-up.

Maybe this is easy for everyone who likes make-up but it still counts, right?!

6. When people say something to me, it is usually easy for me to know what inner conflict the person has or what kind of emotions are playing an important role right there and then.

After all, I am a psychologist or what?!

7. Editing pictures.

I mostly use picmonkey and the free version of vsco cam. This is my hobby and love it!

I thought this picture will be a good match with this post but I admit there is something odd about it… HAHA


What is easy for You?

Toddler Friendly Places in Koh Samui 1.

When you work in a hotel, the concept of weekends do not really exist. Lately, my husband is trying hard to make his Sundays semi-work free. 

I would really love to know more about how other families spend their so-called-free time. I think for us, it is essential that we participate in activities Zoard can be involved in. We tried a few dinner dates with friends and usually it was a disaster if we went out. In general, eating out is a pain in the … Zoard wants to explore the world and we end up stuffing our food down in literally seconds.

Maybe young children are not so keen on eating nicely prepared vegetables and meat for more than five minutes but they sure are interested in animals (and gardening).


Our first attempt was to show Zoard an elephant.
Side note: in my opinion, elephant rides are NOT recommended for babies.

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This program lasts about 3 minutes. If your toddler is already the proud owner of a stuffed elephant it could be longer. 5 minutes! But seriously, it all depends on the age I think. But basically an elephant is something you can look at but cannot really touch. So even for some cool pictures, you have to get creative… HAHA
Ask your hotel about the nearest place to find some nice elephants. We went to Maenam.


There is a butterfly park on the island that we haven’t been to because we think it is probably steaming hot inside. But have no fear, butterflies can be seen everywhere. Keywords to help you spot them: flowers, bushes, sunny weather.

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I tend to analyze things and this is one of those situations… How do you behave when it comes to insects? Do you let your toddler, baby touch them? Do you make faces when you see a big bug? Today I looked pretty alarmed when Zoard tried to touch the “big bug” I rescued from the playroom. I looked alarmed because I was not sure the bug survived Zoard’s friendly attempt to pick it up. Exoskeletons are supposed to be super strong, right?!
Getting back to the butterfly, Zoard is eager to catch on this picture above… well, he broke parts of its wing by accident. I managed to set the butterfly free (we also found the butterfly in the playroom) and flew off but I knew my son weakened it badly. Any thoughts on this?! 


Because of the climate, to this very day, it still seams like a myth that you can go horse riding on Koh Samui. We have seen posters about it but never actually found a contact or heard of anyone seeing horses around here. That of course does not mean they do not exist.
Finding sheep is tricky too and as we found out, finding well kept sheep is even harder. 

Meeting Maria at The Memory Hotel is one of the nicest things of living here. We already took Zoard to see her sheep three times and we would like to make this part of our Sunday family day for good. 

It was heart melting to see our crying baby turn in to a sheep fan. He was truly scared of them at first. 

These animals are given a shower twice a day and they all have names and framed pictures of them. Maybe Marie had one little lamb but Maria has seven and they are all very happy.



Maria took these wonderful pictures of the first time we visited her sheep and you cannot even tell that Zoard was crying beforehand. 


This is from the second visit…. And here comes the third time we went to see them:

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I could not be prouder!

What is your approach when it comes to animals?

Toddler Friendly Hotel on Koh Samui

Over the last 4 or 5 years we have stayed in over 70 hotels with my husband. Once you are in the hotel business you have an attraction towards hotels.

Since we actually live in the hotel my husband currently runs, I suppose we notice things that others might not.

For example, I can clearly see that our hotel has a kiddy pool and a room for kids to play in but I would lie if I would say it is always easy for me to look after Zoard in this hotel.

To be fair, we stay in the same room and that room happens to be super close to the restaurant and the pool which I love. But two days ago the hotel had an over booking because of a mistake a booking company’s system had. This means we had to move out of our room to another one because there is a full house and the guests wanted a room type that is like the one we live in.

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This is our view so I am by no means complaining. 

At the same time, this blog is about our everyday life so perhaps it is nice to see it from my point of view. And though, I admit we live in Paradise, I do not always find it easy to be here without family or friends to help out.

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I know I am lucky because I am a stay-at-ho(tel)me mom but this does not mean I do not have to keep an eye on Zoard non-stop and I can just sip cocktails by the pool.

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I wonder what other parents do who cannot take their toddlers to playgrounds.

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I assume there are places on our planet where air pollution is pretty bad and there are no playgrounds or “safe spaces” for little ones.  For example, this picture might make you think that Zoard can freely play on the grass but that is not so. The whole hotel is on a mountain so if he would step out on the road he would fall because it is steep almost everywhere. 

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Zoard is a curious boy and I am sure if it were up to him he would try out both the steam room and the sauna…

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A friend of mine asked me in an email why I don’t take Zoard to the gym where he can safely run around (or dance as seen on this picture). The gym is great but my friend forgot about one thing: there are others around us who pay to have a relaxing, nice time here so I am not going to let Zoard run around when others are trying to have a nice time working on their figure…

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Naturally, Zoard thinks the whole hotel is his playground. And he loves the golf carts that take the guests up and down… We call them buggies. It is part of Zoard’s vocabulary. Besides the words car, truck, big truck, van, trolley, bike, airplane… Yes, maybe I could write a post about Zoard’s talking… HAHA

How satisfied are You with the area you live in? Where do your kids do the most climbing, running, exploring?